for my cousin. . . who thinks I need to update

well. . . here I go again. My cousin informs me that it's been almost a month since my last update. If she would know how busy I am maybe then she would understand the lack of posting. . . =) For most of one week I worked on wedding pictures. Then I got a job again which takes up three days of my week. One day at the center and one day at Leona's pretty much takes up my week.

My photography has been. . . on strike. (which means for some reason or another I have not been taking that many pictures of late) This past week I finally got my camera out and started taking pictures. Which then caused me to wonder why I ever stopped. I love photography!! I also discovered that pics on cloudy days have a totally different feel than pics on sunny days. A lady from church wanted me to take pictures of her little boy and it ended up being on a very overcast day. Somehow the sun makes things look happy and clouds make things look. . . I don't know. . .they seem to have more emotion or something. Which I discovered is cool. . . =-) Since my week was full of photos, my post will be full of photos. Sorry to all of you who have slow internet connections. . . =)

Lately I've been thinking a lot about forgiveness. . . I have a hard time understanding how it works. Something that happened almost 6 months ago still comes back to haunt me. When someone you trust turns on you. . . How do you forgive? I honestly feel like I have forgiven but there are still days when I wake up and want to box them in the nose. I guess I wonder how you can cope with the hurt and the let down, and love them the way you should at the same time. It's almost like you have to start over completely. You have to learn to love them again all over. Makes me realize how important it is to keep relationships real. Obviously we will all mess up at one point or another, no relationship will ever be perfect on this side of Heaven. But somehow it makes you see how important relationships really are. I get so caught up in the 'things'. You know the 'things' that people do that they shouldn't. I can be a real critic and a judge. But what they are doing is not nearly as important as who they are. Instead of looking at the 'things', I should be looking for ways to encourage them to grow, to be there for them, to just love them for who they are. That's so easy to lose sight of and as always much easier to say than do.

Well I suppose I should go now. I apologize for the shortness of this post and also for the length of time between my posting. I hope you all have a lovely day.